Therapist said im not trans
this happened years ago but its been weighing on me ever since.
I was around 16 and went to a psychiatrist for a few sessions. there were rorschach tests, had to build a beach in a box of sand, had to tell some kind of story? i dont remember everything, but at the final session i had with her, i had to go with my mom and the therapist said im not trans, i didn't give the answers trans men typically give, smth like that.
I've finally decided i can ask this somewhere, could those results mean anything? have i been lying to myself for the past ~6 years?
I consider myself some kind of nb transmasc person/guy, and i really want top surgery, and would like to start low dose t, but im pretty androgynous already so T is not my main priority. idk what to think tbh, i socially transitioned everywhere aside from my family, but have i just built this on a complete misunderstanding of my own feelings?
edit: thank you for the replies, all of you are wonderful! honestly its like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulder seeing people call these tests bullshit. always felt like an outlier in the community because this was in the back of my mind, like a confirmation im not actually part of it. i might be able to start the process of getting t soon, so i was really worried ill fall at the first hurdle, that ill get the same results at the psychiatrist. so im really grateful for the comments ❤️