I know this is most of y'alls favourite track off of the new album. I had avoided/skipped it while listening to the album but today I decided to give it a try. It's raining lightly and the sun has started to peak through a bit this cold day. I feel like the song is carrying me far away. It is so good. Thank god for this band. Good day to you all 🔥
We met online. I don't even know what drew me to her but we matched on a dating site. I wasn't looking for love I just thought at the time that a dating site was a good place to make new friends - silly, I know. She was ethereal: an infectious smile in her pics, light-skinned and femme-presenting. Like water to my oil.
I was extremely shy and avoidant at the start and her energy was off the charts. She would call, text, video call...you name it. I followed her on Tiktok and she is one of the reasons I have a Tiktok account. She would invite me to places I couldn't go to cause I was staying far from Nairobi at the time. I am so so sure we pissed each other off sometimes😂.
When we first met I was a mess. I was sick and my hair was almost falling out( I tried rice water, biotin and even egg yolk haha😂) and I had lost 25kg. But she asked me to kiss her - I didn't until much later that night and now I just regret how short it was. I had kissed a guy before and it was okay but kissing her made me feel like I was floating far above the clouds ( I'm giggling just remembering😳). Lights were flashing, music was booming, this guy was glaring at us lmao - Only she and me existed in that moment...sigh... Yes I am a lovergirl even though I act like a hater.
I don't know how we lost contact...we just stopped talking.I think sth happened to her but she never really shared much about herself and I was not gonna pry. I tried and failed to keep the friendship even when we both got jobs but slowly by slowly we just started drifting apart. We last spoke last year and her response was a generic chatGPT one. I felt so hurt although I didn't tell her cause I figured she was just too exhausted to want to chat for long. I want to call her but I am sure it will not go through -- maybe I should just say fuck it and try? I feel responsible for things ending...
I miss video calls in the dark with her cause the place I was had constant power cuts. I miss telling her what I was eating for the day: Usually ugali and cabbage or rice and beans. I miss singing to her. She was more than a friend. Thanks for reading :3
I was talking to a guy on here and pretty fast the conversation switched to sex. I found myself rolling my eyes so far back into my head I may have seen the scar on my scalp I got when I was five. I am far from conservative. I just feel a disconnect whenever the topic is brought up. He could have asked me my favourite colour first lol.
I have dated both genders and the feeling has never really gone away. Maybe I belong on the asexual spectrum. I have moved from repulsion to my current ambivalence towards sex. I will always believe that sex is a vulnerable moment and that I can never just take my clothes off for just anyone. I also believe that if my partner never wanted sex I would be completely fine. I would also be the freakiest freak that ever freaked if I truly vibe with them - I just don't vibe with anyone like that.
Like, there are better things to do imo in those wee hours of the night. Like making brownies, organising my makeup, reading whatever I can get my hands on, looking for my silly outdoors cat... That's just me though.
I do not think I am better than anyone ( other than kasongo - I am better than him) I just wanted to let this off my chest 😄