u/the_door_doth_open

Hey y’all! I’m from the Deep South, US. However, only values I take from that is being polite and having a sense of honor. I’m no southern belle, unless that could include a closet full of all black, decked out skin art with a passion for anything rock music. I work in Public Health(Medical) and it’s one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever done in my life. My personality is INFP( startin’ to make sense ain’t it?)

I have a variety of interests and am never afraid to try something new. I have an insatiable thirst for knowledge, but when I’m home I prefer to be goofy and absolutely bat shit bonkers funny. Did you know that laughing is your brains way of naturally releasing endorphins? Yeah, got a whole slew of those fun facts going toe to toe in my brain. I can’t always promise you they will be useful, but it’ll keep you on your toes and make you go hmmmm.

Finally, life is hard enough as is, I’m no stranger to the struggle. If things don’t match up or work with ya, I ain’t gonna be mad at ya and we’ll go on our merry ways. Life’s too short and ain’t no sense in beating a dead horse!

Hopefully that made you laugh in a sense, my southern draw ain’t that exaggerated but makes for great story telling! See y’all around 😊

I awoke this morning
Was it the high?
How you ticked all the right boxes
It was like looking at a mirror
Yet we were clearly two worlds apart
You told me exactly who you were
But my heart just couldn’t listen
She was telling her brain all sorts of lies
She absolutely adored the connection
For once she no longer felt alone in the world
So when I confessed to you
You ran out on the fly
I could never hate you
But I hate the world for what It did to you

Convincing yourself that closeness and vulnerability is dangerous
When my brain took over and was ready to pull the plug
Your rare but soundly affectionate words penetrated the wounds in my heart
To stay and be hopeful
But what the fuck for?

I could never convince you, you were worth charging at the world for
The further I expressed my care for you
The more you receded into yourself
And for a moment there I was willing to accept this

But I know the love I have is meant for something greater
Not to be capped or limited

It is not to meant to make you be at war with yourself
Despite my disappointment
I still very much care for you
I want you to have the love that you so very much deserve
But until you realize that is something you want for yourself
You will tear every heart to pieces that falls for you
And the connection you innately desire will just be out of arms reach

So I will think of you
Mourn what we fantasized together
Until time washes away what we “had”
And hope that one day
You will stop romanticizing
And allow yourself to have what you truly desire

Because out of everyone in the world
I truly believe in that

Since the day you first reached out
Never did I think I would develop feelings
Always it’s too fast, or too slow
But oh, how you fascinate me
This isn’t love, but it is a fondness
The kind where his face dances across my mind
Throughout the day
The kind where I wonder and hope he’ll be okay
I keep myself busy
But it would be a lie if I didn’t say
I imagine you here

From your unique mannerisms
To how you carry yourself
How you are able to make me laugh and blush all at the same time
Just by being you

Oh how I enjoy you being you
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring
You may be gone
You may be here
But what a privilege it was
To get to know and sit
With some pieces of you

Thank you for everything.