u/themoons_goblin

I don’t know what to do with my life.

I got news today that I’m going full time at my job, that they are eyeing me for management positions etc.

I DON’T want that. I did management once and I hated it, I hate that a day off is never truly a day off because everyone calls you, everyone has a problem, and very one has a question. Every insignificant thing that happens people go to you, despite doing the same thing for 2+ years.

I don’t know what my passion is?

My boyfriend he loves teaching and sales, and he is furthering his career in those and he is doing amazing. My friend is a teacher and she loves her job.

I don’t know what I want to build a career on, and that is something my boyfriend and I have discussed before, and it’s something that deeply affected our relationship for a while.

I have settled where I am now, but I don’t want to move up in this company. And to be honest, i don’t think I care about a career. I am okay with having a job, that’s what my family believed in as long as you had a job and you were taking care of yourself that is all you need.
His family and him are very career oriented, but I don’t feel that way for anything, I don’t feel like I have a passion.

I would be more than happy to work at a place like a DMV, off the weekends, every other holidays. But that’s not a “career”.
I wouldn’t mind working on a hospital if I could at a front desk, taking in the name of the patience etc. but that’s not a “career”.

I want low effort jobs or places that at least interest me, I would love to work at a comic book shop, I love those, that doesn’t bring in any money for me to live off, and is not a career.
A local coffee shop is not a career.
Working on a library is not a career.

I wish I knew what I want, that I had a passion for something. I have no idea what I’m doing, if this is all life has to offer? this job, sucking it up and having to move up into management and further etc.

That to me, I think “fine, I can do this, just keep your head low and work be miserable like everybody else’s.”

But really? That’s what my life is going to be?

As a kid I thought, no I will be different, I won’t be grumpy like the adults around me

I know I won’t be happy, that one day I’m going to wake up and hate what my life has become, I already hate the idea of it now.

I simply wish the answer would come to me, or that there was a happy medium of what I could be.

What if I’m just a destined to be a loser? What if I never find out my passion?

Has anyone here ever struggled with such thought or a similar dilemma?