How disciplinary spanking has helped my OCD.
Hello! I'm Nastya, and like many people here can probably relate to, I had a rough upbringing. I dont want to go to deep into it, but essentially everything that could have gone wrong went wrong. I have been in lifelong therapy, and for the most part has worked wonders in helping me live a normal, functional life.
I've been interested in the bdsm scene for a while, but my therapist has advised me to stay away from a lot more of the hard-core stuff for now. (I am lucky to have found a very sex positive therapist, shes the best, if I could shout her out I would.)
I've been with my partner for 2 years, and he's genuinely the most understanding people I could be blessed with. He went through the effort of researching C-PTSD and OCD to help get a better understanding of where my mind is at in some things and is an amazing advocate for me.
I absolutely adore disciplinary spanking. I'm not usually a brat, but in our dom/sub relationship, I will purposely bend rules just to have disciplinary, non sexual action taken. I knew there was some sort of link between me having bad days and craving a spanking. I brought it up to my therapist and she told me that some people find them really helpful for breaking rumination. After discussion, and some research on my part, I discussed it with my partner and we decided to test it out.
I had a really bad day, I couldnt stop ruminating on a situation. I told my partner and he spanked me. It was one of the harder ones I have received, but something really cool happened after the comfort and aftercare was done. The rumination wasnt gone, but it was quiet, and I was able to see my logic as convoluted. I was able to have a normal day when before I would have been super wired and anxious.
Not only that, but for the days following, as long as my ass was sore, I could break the rumination easier.
Now, we're considering a maintenance scedule, and that is Def not a problem for me, especially with my classes starting up again.
I would like to stress that I am not a medical professional, and this is just a personal anecdote, and what works for me might not work for everyone.
Has anyone ever had experience with therapeutic spankings or disciplinary spankings? Or am I just a fringe person?