I posted about losing the detransition case in December AND AFTER ALL THIS NIGHTMARE I WON IN THE COURT OF APPEALS TODAY!!! I'm getting my real sex and birth name back in my passport this summer!!! The government finally recognized me as a biological woman, I'm so so happy
my hair has become wavy on testosterone. In the third year on hormones, I grew a mallet and noticed that when my hair is long, the tips curl very much, and the hair itself curls slightly in length. my hair was absolutely straight before testosterone, straight as a board, and I miss it! 😭 curly hair is cool but I think it looks ugly on me, I don't know how to deal with it. my hair is shoulder-length now and every morning I'm trying to straighten it. I'm 1,5 years off T and I read stories from other detrans women claiming that their hair stopped being wavy after a year off T... my mom is curly so probably testosterone has awakened some kind of "curly hair gene"? and now i just need to come to terms with the fact that I will never have straight hair again. it's not a big deal actually, I just kinda miss my teenage hair... share your experience please if you also got wavy hair on T!
I don't know what to do. I want to meet him, but I'm scared. My mom says my voice is not male. People don't mistake me for a man when they hear my voice. Yesterday a woman from bank called me and called my current legal name (male) and said "miss, please, get him on the phone", I said it was my data and she said "miss, I don't have time for jokes". I was so happy that she identified my voice as female, because it's one of my worst insecurities because of testosterone.
but I had a mastectomy. I'm a breastless woman. Moreover, I had a keyhole mastectomy so I don't have scars and my chest looks very male... I don't know how to tell this guy about it. Should I?... The majority of guys like breasts. I have none. He also said he wants family and kids. It's my dream too. But what if he ghosts me because I'm not capable of breastfeeding?
he says he felt strong connection to me the moment he saw me and that I look very beautiful, but he doesn't know my story. I don't know if i should tell him before we meet. He's a boxer and I have anxiety that he can do something to me if he thinks I'm trans or if he knows I WAS trans. Apart from that I'm scared that he would not see me as a woman anymore when he finds out I'm detrans.
additional info: we're Russian and turned out he lives in my area in the city. in Russia detrans and trans is basically the same thing. like "you dared to change your sex once so you'll never be a woman again".
I'm actually just hate myself so much for transitioning in the first place. It ruined my life. Detransitioning ruined it too because now I'm a freak. I'm so scared. But I want to try because I want love, I want to date, I want a man to love me, I want to have kids in future.
What should I do? What did you do if you were in a situation like me?