Rant thread.
CW Violence.
I'm not expecting anything to come from this post, I just feel like I need to get some emotions out. But seriously, and I mean this with all due respect to everyone here- how do you find the courage to publicly transition?
I'm 22, just graduated college. Been on HRT since 18, but lost health coverage a few times, so I still have a very masculine figure. And every day, I hate being seen as masculine. On numerous occasions, ive just wanted to crawl out of my skin and.... well, let's just end that thought there.
I really, really, really want to present feminine and still feel safe. I'm dealing with PTSD from a violent event I endured growing up & my town had someone shoot up a queer nightclub a few years ago. I'm so tired that my life has been surrounded by hateful, violent people. I just want to be myself, but how is that even possible?
Advice is welcome. Deep apologies if I made you uncomfortable.