u/throwawaycuzIcan987

I'm 16 and I'm trans (MTF) I haven't come out yet to anyone other than my mom and a very close friend. I want to starting transitioning but I'm horrified bcuz I live in a very hostile state. I wish I had the guts to come out. I feel trapped in my own body, I look at myself in the mirror and I feel despair. I wish whatever higher power didn't curse me to be imprisoned in my own flesh. I don't feel like I will ever be able to be myself. Its driven me to the point were the only way out is death bcuz I will always feel wrong and imprisoned in my own skin, but I also don't have the guts to end it.