Losing attraction
After extended amount of time of being hypervigilant to notice his mood shifts, reaching out to him when he shut me out, coaxing him into communicating with me, reassuring him, soothing his pain, single handedly trying to find solutions, being extra delicate with my words & actions (since it's just a pain if he emotionally retreats again), figuring out (since he wouldn't communicate openly) his needs, etc, I found myself losing all attraction to him.
He is objectively good looking, but I can't even see him as a man anymore. I feel like I've slowly started to view him as a child (I don't mean to be condescending), that I have to care & cater for. And the thought of being physically intimate with him just made me shudder, and I have to disassociate a bit.