Feeling like every decision I make is the wrong one
We've had a hell of a time this year with illnesses since it was my son's first year in preschool. I made the wise decision to take on a new role at work right as he started not knowing what I was in for. He has missed probably a good third of the school year and I've been losing my mind trying to balance everything.
Now that it's summer, things have gotten a bit better, but school is out. So I have made weekly plans for how to handle childcare plus work until he goes back. I sought out several schools and camps and paid a sum I can't even bring myself to look at in my bank account. But okay, it's sorted, right?
Well, this week he is supposed to start at a language camp. And the first day happens to fall on a public holiday in my country. So I've been looking forward to finally having an opportunity to spend a day with my husband as just a couple.
Nope. 39 degree fever (that's like, 100 F). Coughing, sneezing. Unlikely to improve by tomorrow based on experience.
I'm just pulling my hair out because it feels like I can't win no matter what I do! I can't catch a break EVER and nothing I plan or organize for mine or my son's benefit ever works out. It makes me want to give up, honestly. Quit my job, just dedicate my entire life to his weekly colds so that at least I'm not disappointing people.