I’m extremely burned out
Hi, I’m a 25F from Colombia currently finishing two months of Aupair in China. When I came here I didn’t really know how sketchy the whole thing was and ended up with an agency that sold me this perfect idea of cultural exchange.
Only for me to end up with a horrible family that had me working 12 hours a day, consecutively. When I asked the agency for help they just said I had to because it was summer and once the kid went back to school I would have more free time (the hour limits in our contract state 6 hours of work a day btw) and because I’m an idiot and i didn’t want to cause trouble I didn’t say anything against it. At least not consistently.
I was supposed to do a 4 months program with them 2 months where the kid was enjoying summer and two more when the kid went back to school, but I few weeks ago they told me the family only paid for 2 months and will not continue the program. So I did all of those extra hours for nothing.
Now for the past two weeks I’ve felt extremely burned out, exhausted and I feel myself becoming more and more depressed, I’m trying to get myself out of that mental state really hard but I’m starting to feel like is a loosing battle. I’m scared because I’ve been depressed before and I don’t want to have to experience that here.
The agency is trying to find another family for the missing two months but I’m not sure if I can survive to stay here longer, I’m tired. I don’t know what to do. And I also lost my remote job due to this insane schedule so I don’t even have money to buy a ticket out because they are very expensive and the agency was supposed to but all of my tickets, but if I end our “agreement” I’d have to pay for everything myself even though they are the ones who fucked up things.