u/tjv491

Been with my wife for 31 years. Married for 26 of them. On April 16 th I came home from work to find my wife laying in bed with a gun in her hand. I’m so confused and lost. She was my world. She was sick but not terminally. Always in pain. But I thought she was ok. Never saw this coming. I can barely get through the day without breaking down 5 or 6 times. I will never get the image out of my head and when I do see it, it feels like the first time over and over. The silence in the house is deafening! My day to day life has been turned upside down! I am asking anyone. How do you deal with this because I’m not doing a very good job!