25F and still not sure what I'm doing.
I'm a 25F I'm pretty much a loser. I don't have friends in real life, No boyfriend. I have a job, and I don't go out besides walking and grocery shopping. I'm extremely introverted, so much so that I get awkward when people try to make conversation with me. Sometimes, I feel like I'm still 16 with how I get and it's getting embarrassing.
I never completed high school, I stopped going around 16/17 due to severe depression, always sleeping, always binge eating. I feel stupid now, second guessing myself all the time. That maybe I'm not that smart, perhaps I'm just so dumb I believe I'm smart. I forgot a lot of what I learned in high school, even basic math and how to write an essay, and even basic history facts.
Now, this entire year I've been making changes to improve my life, I'm missing 2 out of the 4 subjects for my GED (L.A and S.S), and like I said I've been walking more to lose the weight I gained from 17-24. I've now recently been looking into relearning the basics of math, history, science, and English. Yet, I still feel stupid. That at 25 I'm having to relearn all of this. I'm not even sure what to do after I get my GED.
Most days I feel there's no hope for me, and I just lay in bed, forcing myself to go out and get my 7-10k steps in, come home and lay back down. I don't even know why I'm trying to change, when deep down I feel like a lost cause. Anyway, I just needed a place to vent.