how to hallucinate people?

hi all. i could really use a bit of help with this. i want to have actual visions. that means not just distortion, but real hallucinations of people i can talk to. i want my own tyler durden, but ideally without all the scary parts. ideally a specific person, but if that's not possible, it's fine. please help me find a way, ideally without dying but maybe risk is okay too. what drug or drugs do i need? i haven't found anything reasonable in my search. is there a research chemical that fits my need?

i lost someone earlier this year and i need to be able to get at least some semblance of contact. she was the other half of me. i don't believe we can ever fully experience any part of the world until we've shared it with those we love. my heart my mind, my body, my very soul aches for hers. even if it isn't real. even if it kills me. i need a reunion drug. death cannot stop true love, right? only delay it? please help me with this goal. someone must know a way. i don't want platitudes or excuses, i want results. please help.

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u/tolenieu — 2 days ago

Recommendations?

I love my Dechanic Control so much but i spilled stuff on it and then accidentally washed it on hot and destroyed it. I need a new desk pad, ideally 36" x 18". The problem is, all the pads I can find are like so smooth they're literally *shiny.* It's abysmal. The mousepad finder the bot recommended to me provided terrible, slippery pads even though I gave it only one requirement---roughness. Please help :(

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u/tolenieu — 18 days ago