My girlfriend cheated on me
Hello! My girlfriend of 1 year(19F) (yesterday, 20th may would've been our one year anniversary) cheated on me(20M) for the last 4 weeks with a friend of hers. They knew each other for a short period of time. We live appart, she lives half a continent away from me. This summer should've been our best holiday ever, and she couldn't wait a bit longer.
To give some context, she has multiple psychiatric issues, she can't understand her being, she is impulsive, she can't decide on the good or bad and has suicidal thoughs 24/7. All of this is because of her parents(mostly).
Anyway, apprently she cheated because she couldnt take the thoughts anymore and wanted to escape. I said "as much as I would want to continue this with you,we're not together anymore". She bought a hotel for us this summer, tickets to a concert, a holiday at the beach with her parents, and ended up doing this out of what? Necessity? I highly doubt it. Of course, the usual "But I love you and you're everything to me" speech came out, but I didn't listen. You don't love me if you do this. Period.
Now I canceled my flights, got the help and support I needed from friends and I am now questioning what to do next in terms of relationships. Maybe it's too soon to ask this, but now, I can never look at a woman the way I looked at her. We did almost everything together and a lot of it was for the first time
I didn't block her, I didn't throw things that reminded me of her away. I'm not that kind of guy. I can't just forget 1 year of happiness in a click.
So yeah. I just wanted to vent this to a community that probably experienced the same things as me. If you'd like, you can leave your thoughts below, I can answer anything. Best of luck to everyone and sorry for my bad english sometimes, it's not my first language...