Is this just my OCD or is this psychosis???
Hello,
I’m a female in my 20s.
I have diagnosed OCD, anxiety disorder, autism. No diagnosed psychosis or schizophrenia or mood disorders. But I’m wondering if maybe I have one? I’m not looking for a diagnosis but I’m just wondering if others with OCD experience these same symptoms. I have some of the normal OCD stuff, compulsive handwashing, fears of contamination, moral ocd, but it gets to a point where I think maybe I’m actually psychotic. I had an episode the other day where I was convinced I had done something wrong years ago and that the police were after me and I’d get arrested. Total panic attack, was distressed for 2 days with it peaking on the second day. My contamination anxiety was a lot worse at the same time and I couldn’t stop washing my hands and then subsequently my body when I decided to try and shower. I’ll get convinced that I’m totally going to hell for something I’ve done if not prison (and I’m not a religious person by any means). The other day when my anxiety was peaking, I was thinking about how anybody has the capability to kill me if they wanted to and I isolated with my door locked the rest of the day because technically anyone in my family could kill me if they wanted (no history of violence or abuse in the house and were very close). When there was a thunderstorm today, I refused to shower or use the bathroom because *technically* lighting could strike the house in just the right way and hit the plumbing and electrocute me. Does this all sound like standard OCD or does this not sound normal?