36f Just wanting a family to reach out to
I dont really have a family, or anyone I can lean on. I was a caretaker for my mom from when I was 22 until I was 34 when she passed, then 1 day short of 7 months later, my dad passed. Its hard not having one person I can reach out to, or know will reach out to me and care. Its hard to remember that I exist as a person sometimes. Holidays are the worst. I feel homesick for a home I just dont have, and im hoping one day to meet cool people who I can lean on and who can lean on me. I am a big nerd, love anime, video games, comic books, TTRPGs, board games and movies. Would be even better if I could find someone local in my area and have physical family meet ups, it would be nice to have somewhere to go on holidays...I probably sound sad and pathetic im sure, but im trying to put myself out there more.