I lost my 5month old daughter, how am i supposed to live?
On july 10th, i recieved the worst call of my life. I was at work while my daughter was at home with her father. He called me in a panic, saying she was unresponsive. The autospy chalked it up to sids, although i came to conclusion it was her colic problems i tried so hard to make notice to her doctor about. Her own father had to give her cpr which left a stain on our couch from all her spit up from her lungs. Everyday is hell. Its the world stopped for me. I’ve been in the same spot since that day. I can literally feel myself going crazy from the moment i wake up to the moment i close my eyes. I cant stop replaying every second of the day in my head. I seriously don’t think I can be here any longer …. I just see no point of a future or a life without her in it. My life was shit before her, she was my reason why. and i lost that.