u/tummyachesurvivor900

Wasn’t sure how to tag this one 🥲

Literally just want to know the answer to the question in the title.

Sorry for the strange wording I don’t like describing it as puberty because it wasn’t to me, it’s more like a disfigurement.

If some context is needed I am a 17 year old guy, known I was a boy since 3-4 been told both my parents then and when I was around 12 I was obviously “too young to know” -_- so they never helped me.

For a few years I lived by my dad who is severely intolerant of anything different and is openly pro Hitler.

I am now living with my mother who will let me get on t after I go to a shrink and she is satisfied?

But the thing is I don’t know how long that will be and I want to prevent my body being harmed by oestrogen further.

I’ve never heard of puberty blockers being prescribed to someone my age for… obvious reasons (what more can you say when ur not the target audience) but I just want to know if it’s possible to shield myself from further irreversible damage.

I know there will probably be a lot of side effects (especially due to my age) like decreased bone density, and increased risk of other things but I would genuinely rather dealt with that than oestrogen, besides it will just be for a couple of months at most.

I know I’m probably grasping at straws here but I am so terrified of becoming further fucked, I know oestrogen probably won’t do anything to me but what if it does?

I don’t know if I’ll be able to go on if my hips get any less narrow or if my chest gets any less small, I think it might be the straw that breaks the camel’s back. And I don’t want a broken back.

Title. I think the only way I’ll ever be able to lose enough weight for phallo is if I get some type of weight loss surgery and I think my best option is a gastric bypass but I’m not sure if this will make me ineligible for surgery or increase my risk for complications (honestly I don’t care if it increases my risk for complications knowing my luck I’ll get every complication known to man anyways 🥀)

Vent bit below:

I have been trying to lose weight ever since I learned the only surgeon in my country who does bottom surgery for guys has a BMI limit (since I was 14/15 so around 2 years ago I started trying to loose weight).

In 2 years I have accomplished close to nothing despite making so many lifestyle changes.
Every morning I jog for at least a kilometre and I try to get a 30 minute walk in the evening. I do at least 20 pushups and 10 sit-ups a day.
I’ve almost entirely cut out fried foods from my diet, I don’t eat meat at all let alone red meat, I make sure I get enough fibre, I follow the food pyramid thingy and I try my best to correctly portion everything, if I want a snack or sweet I’ll eat some sort of fruit and I limit how much food I eat for the day plus many other diet and lifestyle changes.

I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, I’ve been doing this with barely any slip ups for 2 years and my BMI has only slightly decreased from 46.9 to 40 and I don’t know what else to do apart from surgery I feel like I’ve exhausted all my conventional options.