therapist types are cowards
I’m not really sure where else to post this
Long story short, my last therapist used to email me back and forth between sessions almost all the time. In the beginning it was a few times week, then slowly over time it became more sporadic, distant, and vague until he eventually just stopped. I never admitted it and he never brought it up but this made me so distraught I felt like I was being abandoned all over again. Eventually when I asked he just sent something vague like he’s not allowed to email me from his personal email. What? Then why did he give it to me in the first place?? Was he secretly trying to gauge if we were compatible and just dipped when I got overbearing and unstable? Cause that’s what it felt like to me.
I am still internally angry over this and his ability to just compartmentalize me like it was nothing.
Another thing, I used to be friends with two different counselors over the years. Neither of them were good friends to me. They were both pretentious and obsessed with psychoanalysis and judging others, obsessed with protecting their boundaries, yet both of them ghosted me rudely after literally never bringing up a single problem they had with me.
I am still actively in therapy but the more I learn about western psychiatry and therapy the more turned off I am by the whole process. I used to want to be a therapist too, but I realize now it’s just another system of control used to regulate the masses into behavior deemed acceptable or useful by the state. I believe all people are valuable as they are regardless of these traits, but no amount of being affirmed helps heal my relationship to a profoundly sick society. I think the more people who become therapists with these self serving attitudes and who are coming from backgrounds of privilege they won’t unpack the worse off we are.