Awful Plan B experience- disassociation
So I took Plan B the 24th May after a condom got stuck in me when my partner pulled out. I was already super stressed and anxious because I ended up really regretting sleeping with this person at the time. The day after I was anxious that I convinced myself I was pregnant and was ovulating so I went to get Plan B the following morning. That night or the day after I started the withdrawal bleeding which at the time I believed was my period, it only lasted a few days however. It wasn’t until afew weeks later that I began to feel severe nausea that effected my daily, I struggled to eat and began to get stomach cramps and a lot of pain, as well as severe anxiety and mood swings. Over the next few weeks I began to recover but the nausea was still super bad. I began to get super anxious because my period was very late at this point. I took multiple pregnancy tests and tried to calm down but the nausea and constant anxiety waiting for my period began to really mess with me. Eventually after getting awful cramps and illness, I got my period on the 21st of June so it was technically 20 days late. It wasn’t much worse than my normal period but was definitely different with more clots, less predictable ect. I thought with my period coming this would calm my symptoms down as my stress was lowered knowing I wasn’t pregnant, I thought my hormones would start to reset. However now a few weeks later I somehow feel even worse. I’ve been feeling super out of it and disassociated which isn’t something I’ve ever felt in my life, I’m struggling to do basic tasks because of the brain fog I have, I can’t socialise and I’m still struggling with daily naseau and anxiety. I have a history of depression as well and my inability to operate and feel normal is triggering that as well. Im not sure if I’m just highly sensitive to Plan B and hormones but this is making me scared to try birth control, I’d honestly rather never have sex again than live like this, I can’t function with this level of dissociation and depersonalisation. I also don’t understand why no doctors/pharmicists seem to care about the hormonal effects of the pill and pretending side effects only last 2-3 days which is complete lies. Wondering if anyone else has had this experience, especially with the disassociation because I’m just trying to wait it out and pray it goes away. I just want to feel normal again I feel like taking the pill has ruined my life. Psychically and mentally I am a wreck.
This is less important but I’m also back with the person that caused me to take the Plan B and at the time I didn’t tell him, but now it’s had such an effect on me I feel like I should because it explains why I’ve been so unwell and hormonally messed up for the past month. I’m nervous he will be mad that I didn’t tell him at the time, and will consider it a betrayal of trust.