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I forgot the combination to my suitcase lock, and my passport is inside. What’s the best way to open it?

I’m 24, and I’m living in a place where someone like me -a lesbian - isn’t accepted. But honestly, that’s not even the biggest thing crushing me right now. What’s destroying me is that my family is forcing me into an arranged marriage. I’ve been with a girl for six years. She’s not just my partner she’s the one person who has ever made me feel seen, safe, and understood.

Since I was a kid, I knew that one day I would have to leave my home to survive. Not because I don’t love my family, but because staying means losing myself completely. And now that moment is here, and I feel like I’m drowning.

My family is pushing this marriage on me like it’s nothing. Like my life, my heart, my identity don’t matter. I even reached out to the guy they chose. I told him the truth that I’m being forced. And he told me he feels trapped too, stuck under the weight of family expectations and “men’s honor.” We’re both caught in something neither of us chose.

My mental health is falling apart. I panic out of nowhere. I get dizzy. I can’t sleep unless I take pills. I feel like I’m living in my own body but not in my own life.

And now I’m seriously thinking about leaving home. Not as a threat, not as a dramatic moment but as a real, necessary step to save myself. I’m ready to walk away, even if it means losing contact with my family. But the only thing stopping me is my mother. I don’t want her to wake up one morning and find me gone. I don’t want to break her heart. I want her to know, gently, quietly, that I’m leaving. But I’m terrified that if I tell her, she’ll try to stop me or tell the rest of the family.
I’m exhausted. I’m scared. I feel like I’m running out of time and options.
I just need to know how to leave in a way that keeps me safe, without destroying my mother, and without putting myself in danger of being forced to stay.

انا افكر استقل عن بيت اهلي لاسباب كثير ماراح ادخل بالتفاصيل ولك البيئه سيئه بشكل لا يطاق
مد اليد شي طبيعي ووارد داخل البيت ويستغربون لو ما صار
صراخ واهانات يومياً ويمنعونك من اقل الاشياء اللي لك حق فيها
عموماً انا مصممه اخرج لراحتي النفسيه والعقليه لاني للاسف صرت ما انام الا بمهدئات ونوبات الهلع فضيعه اعصابي مشدوده انفي يصب دم طول الوقت احيانا ما اقدر احرك يدي اليسار للاسف مستواي نزل بحياتي العمليه وعلاقاتي بدت تخف بسبب اني صرت نفسيا غير مرغوبه مع اللي حولي لاني طول الوقت كئيبه
راجعت بكل المستشفيات بحثاً عن حل ولكن ما اقدر اتعايش مع بيئه قاعده تدعس علي
قدمت ابتعاث وبانتظار القبول وبيكون سبب رائع اني اطلع عشانه - رغم انهم ١٠٠٪؜ بيرفضونه ولكن باخذه حجه اهرب فيها منهم - ولكن لو ماجاني الابتعاث
كيف اطلع من هذي البيئه؟ ارجوكم احتاج حل قاعده افقد عقلي