u/unknown_economy19

I started drawing a week ago. I started it to relax but it's not relaxing anymore, so many "Fundamentals" to learn, I feel like I don't get why I started drawing, because it's obvious this isn't as relaxing as gaming. Would like hear what keeps you guys going.

Hello there, I started drawing as a way to relax but my standards are high, I know it takes years old drawing and learning fundamentals to get where I want, but learning fundamentals makes it feels like work, I get that so I seperate my fun sessions and my practice sessions so I don't go crazy while drawing, Sure I'm supposed to drop my standards when I'm drawing for fun but I can't do it, even when I draw for fun everything I draw feels so fucking awful. YES I KNOW to stay patient with the process but my fun sessions don't feel fun anymore it just turns into evaluation session, I expect frustration from learning fundamentals but draw for fun is frustrating too, I already feel like giving up eventhough I started just 9 days ago, I started this for fun, relaxation after a long day, drawing what I love, Infact my study sessions feel better cuz I expect it to be abit frustrating but when I draw for fun I feel the same. Please help me. I don't wanna hate this hobby of mine which I started for relaxation

What the fuck is wrong with me. I started just a week ago, to just relax after my work and now I hAve to draw 5000 squares, Anatomy, and whatever the fuck youtubers say. All I wanted to do was relax not this shit is more difficult than my job, than working out. Just why. Why did I have to ruin this hobby of mine, how the fuck is one supposed to enjoy drawing if all they draw is straight up ass, literal ass, fucking piece of shit hand can't even draw a vertical straight line for fucks sake, yes I see minir improvements now all I have to do is draw 1 million cubes YAY I'M SO EXCITED TO DRAW SOMETHING SO FUCKING BORING AND CRY EVERYTIME I DRAW LIKE THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED WHEN I STARTED DRAWING, TO CRY OUT OF RAGE EVERYTIME I DRAW YAYYY. MEANWHILE EVERY YOUTUBE TUTORIAL MANAGES TO CONFUSE ME EVEN MORE. No seriously how the fuck do I learn? How the fuck Do I enjoy? How the fuck do I not feel like a failure everytime I fucking draw, how the fuck do I learn when everyone says some different fucking advice that all contradict each others. My job feels easier at this point, just why? Why did I start drawing? Just to suffer? I hate drawing, I have ruined it for myself, I guess I'll never enjoy this ever again, Getting hit in the face by a boxes is much better than this bullshit. I quit? Do I? I don't fucking know. I don't feel like it but drawing just hurts my mental health more. Fuck my life

I have no idea what's wrong with me. I started drawing a couple weeks back, this is so much more difficult than I thought, am I really supposed to draw a million different shapes for the rest of my life? I like to draw way too many different things and all of them suck, everytime I draw it looks so f****** dog sh** I feel anger seeing it. Wtf is wrong with me, I enjoyed drawing bad drawings when I was a kid now as an adult everything I draw it makes me really frustrated, it feels like it measures my self worth or something. All I wanted to do was draw humans and now I have to learn a billion f****** cubes, Cylinders, circles for the rest of my life??? Really? I should also mention I never stuck with any skill long enough to get better so ig I don't have that beginners mindset or whatever. The YouTube tutorials that make me feel like I need to learn perspective, anatomy, 50000 cubes, 7000 circles. I started this hobby to have fun now it feels like work, my job feels easier than drawing at this point. What have I done? Wtf is wrong with me.... Just why?