u/unknowuser_13

I’m 13 and for years I’ve had really disturbing thoughts about h9rting animals and people. They make me feel guilty, and I don’t actually want to think about these things, but they keep happening. Today I was really sad and angry, and I hurt my cat by picking her up r@ughly , stepping on her tail, and throwing toys at her. I feel awful and ashamed about it. When I was around 9 or 10 years old, I was crying and my cat came to comfort me, but I thr@w her onto the floor multiple times. Has anyone else experienced something like this? If so, what helped you manage these thoughts and emotions and stop yourself from acting on them?

Lately I've been fighting with my mom a lot, and it's getting really bad. Our arguments start over small things but end with us screaming and throwing things. She says she wishes I was never born or that I would die, and hearing that over and over has started giving me suicidal thoughts. I'm only 13, and I honestly feel so lost. I want to ask for help, but I'm scared of tearing my family apart. Has anyone been through something similar or have any advice?