I recently went to a TCM practitioner for help. Our first session was long almost 2.5 hrs and included acupuncture with magnets on my feet and some round donut like jade stones on my head.

She grabbed 12-15 different kinds of barks and herbs and ground them all to a fine powder.

I bring 2 tsp to a simmer and let it steep overnight. Drink 1 cup before breakfast and another in between lunch and dinner.

My tongue has changed, it's more white and now has a squiggly white line at the tip of my tongue.

Is this an improvement? When I first went to her (June 16) my tongue was not really white at all. Maybe a tiny bit in the back of it.

My phone automatically softens the texture on photos so my photo looks a little smoother and less textured (on the surface) than my tongue in real life.

I did my 4th session following along with a video by Dr. Berceli and the man he was guiding.

I usually temor for 3 rounds, for 2-3 min each round. But with this video his client kept going so I did too. And when they stopped I kept going for a bit longer since my tremors felt small (just vibrations and came and went) and I was just staring to get that "washing machine" type they were talking about. I wanted to feel that more. It only stayed for a few short seconds and left. It happened a few times.

I have CPTSD and I'm in therapy (recent undertaking) doing DBR. My therapist suggest TRE in between our weekly sessions.

My CPTSD stems from childhood abuse including SA.

My tremors morphed into very violent and aggressive movements. My left knee was being smashed open a d smashed closed then the right and then together smashing open and closed with us much force as I could muster. Then my arms started moving and my face contorted, I was grimacing and from deep inside me an intense anger bubbled up. Souch anger. I've never felt anything like that before. My body was fighting. It was like it wanted to fight off my abuser, push him off push him away. I saw new memories that I've never seen before and I started crying so hard. The anger shocked me. My husband came running as he heard my legs and movements from the basement.

He helped me to calm down and stayed with me as a cried. I then started laughing hysterically so hard no sound came out, laughing, then crying/whimpering and more laughing.

Massive release.

That was last night. My inner thighs are a bit sore by my body feel lighter. I'm feeling discouraged at the depth and intensity of the anger that is deep inside me. I don't feel it now, and have never consciously felt it before.

There is so much trauma inside me it feels like it's as deep as Mt Everest is high. During a previous DBR session I was able to "feel" a black cavernous space inside me filled with black sludge and it felt like an unimaginable despair and grief. I'm not consciously aware of it now, just like I can't feel my anger either. It just makes me feel so discouraged that there is so much that I have excavate.

Im not having any adverse effects from the session last night so I'm happy about that. I know I over did it. I will use a timer next time .I'm wondering if anyone can shed some light on the depth of anger or the violent movements, the extreme fighting that my body was doing, even my face ... :(

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Improvements?

I did my 4th session following along with a video by Dr. Berceli and the man he was guiding.