I Need To Vent About My Suicidal Fish
Despite my title seeming a little silly I'm really having a hard time right now.
I have these two beautiful fairly large goldfish that I inherited from my grandfather when he was no longer able to care for them. If my math is correct they are most likely about 14 years old. They have done cross-states moves with me two times now.
These fish are tough cookies they survived both of these moves and some pretty harsh living conditions with my grandfather while he was struggling to care for them.
I love these fish dearly and since living with me I admittedly have spoiled them rotten. They have frequent water quality checks, regular tank cleanings and routine water changes, two bubblers, two filters, pebbles/substrate. Which they did not previously have in their last life with my grandfather.
I'm sure most of you know about the heat wave that is hitting many areas of the world right now. Well unfortunately I'm going undergoing one right now in addition to that my AC broke.
In the chaos of fixing my AC it seems one of my fish had jumped out and killed himself. By the time I got home he was bone dry and there was no hope of saving him. These fish have never jumped out of their water before and all of their years and they're multiple homes. They had just recently had a water change and all of their water levels were perfect. I'm absolutely devastated over this and feel so guilty. I truly don't know what caused it the only thing I can think of is the heat wave that's happening my apartment has been in the high 80s all week and I've just been toughing it out but I didn't think about how the heat would be affecting the goldfish because they started out as pond fish.
I just can't get this guilty feeling out of my stomach and I just feel so horrible I feel like I let my grandfather down as he left me to care for his fish that I killed. I cared so much for these fish and I just feel like I failed them.
Thank you for listening