What do I even do.
I fucking hate my sister, she has ruined my life so much to the point where when I look at her I don't see a human. My dad who died 2 years ago suffered from anger issues, and I do too, but both me and my dad worked on them where we weren't always getting angry. However instead when something super stressful happened we'd snap. This would usually just be throwing something out of anger, and if any of this isn't normal please let me know because according to my sister everything anyone in my family does is wrong. Anyways one time our basement started flooding with sewage water so my dad lost it because he didn't know why it was happening, or what to do, so he threw a chair that had a crock pot on it, and I guess it almost hit my sister who had just walked into the room where my dad threw the chair. My dad was in the laundry room, and to get in there you have to go down some stairs and then there's a big room, and you take a left, so my sister kind of just appeared. Anyways the chair, with the crock pot on it, almost hit my sister, and my dad didn't know she was there. During all this I'm upstairs on our main floor playing a game with my friend. All of a sudden I hear my sister yell at my dad that he's an awful person and should go to jail, this is when me and my mom rush downstairs. Apparently my sister thought he intentionally threw it at her, which I can see where she was coming from, but I know that my dad didn't intentionally throw it at her because I know my dad, and she was his favorite. My mom then calms him down while me and my sister go back upstairs, and my dad rushes up and pushes me because he's trying to get to our towels to soak up the sewage water. But I didn't make a big deal about it because I know he wasn't trying to hurt me. Anyways I think that sparked some awful switch in her brain. Ever since then she's been awful, she manipulates everyone and everything, making herself out to always be the victim. My dad after calming down repeatedly apologized to her and said he didn't know she was there. Even when he was on his death bed from his cancer he told her he was sorry, and I guess that wasn't enough for my hateful sister. To this day she milks the whole dad throwing a chair at her situation. Anyways after my dad died my sister started claiming that my mom was abusive which is not the case. Yeah I'm sure my mom was a little mean to her sometimes, I even remember staying up late at night because my mom and sister were fighting and crying. Why was this happening, because my mom was trying to get my sister to write her college essays or something like that, so that we could afford for her to go to her dream school. Also, my mom is now a single parent and has to do a whole lot more of everything so yeah she won't be as nice as she used to be. Fast forward and my sisters therapist and friends are convinced that my mom is abusive and my sisters therapist, who I'll name Jane, was apparently about to call CPS if my mom did one more wrong thing. Again my mom has never physically, mentally, sexually or any other form of abusing us. My mom never did anything wrong that would promote it to be on for CPS to be called on her. And I don't blame Jane or my sisters friends for thinking my mom was abusive because they only know what twisted story or straight up lie, that my sister tells them. Fast forward again and my sister goes off to college at her dream school, with a full ride. My grades go from mostly A's and a few C's to all A's in my first semester of sophomore year. Now I'm in my second semester and this is all caught up to where I am right now. My sister comes home and my grades go from A's to B's or even C's. My sister apparently has something wrong with her heart. While she was in college she met some rich friends who are also very dramatic and convinced there is always something wrong, anyways one day she read her pulse wrong and got an ambulance to the hospital. She has 3 friends who can drive and there's urgent care but no, she has to waste our mom's money, because she was completely fine according to the hospital. Now she's back home and she's supposed to do a bunch of chores around the house to pay for the hospital and ambulance bill, but every time my mom asks her to do something she fakes being sick or in pain. Shell say she's in too much pain to bring in the groceries, my mom leaves and I hear her talking very loudly with one of her friends. She's also basically a fucking pig who is always making a mess anywhere she goes. I've had to replace 4 external batteries this month already because she keeps taking mine and losing them and I ask her not to use mine and she does anyway. I've even put them in my room and she's still taken them. I've been having super bad allergies this week, literally struggling to breathe a tiny bit, and even now she has the fucking audacity to be on a face time with her boyfriend at max volume and when I ask her to turn it down she tells my mom that I said something horrible to her, like she told my mom today that I called her a "waste of space" which I didn't, I asked her to turn down her call because I had a migraine from my allergies, and I was in bed and she was in her room. Btw can I remind you she's 18 and acting like a child. The other day I snapped and told her that she needs to do her chores because I can't keep doing them. I'm sick of mowing the lawn for her, when I still have school work I need to do and she doesn't. Oh and btw she lost her full ride scholarship because she was "in too much pain" or "too sick" to go to classes. She missed ⅔ of her classes this year. And she's mad at me and my mom that she lost her scholarship because she didn't do homework or show up to class or anything. Also she was never in too much pain to hang out with her friends or do stuff with inner varsity. Anyways, I'm losing sleep, losing focus, I genuinely just want to be done with school or with my life at this point. Btw I'm not saying I want to unalive myself, and I'm not planning on doing that or anything, I just want to sleep for a week or two. I just need to rest. But I can't because of this school work, and I can't miss any more classes because in the winter I got to the flu, and then after 2 weeks I got covid. I can't focus on school anymore, I can't sleep, I'm always upset, and it's all because of my sister, i wish she was never in my life. What do I even do to get my grades up and stuff because I'm all out of ideas and I don't want my sister to ruin my future like she ruined hers.