Something I did when i was a kid i still regret everything about it today and it haunts me
So around age of 9 or 10 i was exposed to a lot of shit which kids shouldnt be and some things i understood were right and wrong, but some things i did not, i didnt even fully understand what was sexual assault so i used to live in a building and we had a new family in this next apartment abd thier kid used to come play and she was really younger than me and i used to play with her like how you usually would then one day i saw another kid hit her and say mean shit AND I DONT KNOW what went in my head i just started doing same shit, thing is i dont remember what i did, i just remember hitting her, pulling her pants down (i never touched her istg) because for me pulling the pants down meant humiliation so i did that, since i dont remember half the terrible things i did to her i dont also remember how it ended i've forgotten half my memories actually, i pray everyday for her safety and that she becomes so happy in her life nothing should ever hurt her. Just wanted to get it off my chest i think this will always haunt me and it should i dont want forgiveness i just hope she is safe
And yes i grew up and matured and then suddenly remembered this horrible stuff i did to a child now i just try to help someone going through all this best as i can