Please send help
Before all of this happened, I was my daughter’s primary caregiver. I was the parent who made sure she was enrolled in school, attended appointments, and had her day-to-day needs met. There were many times when I had to step in to make sure important things were taken care of because they were not. I handled doctor’s appointments, school matters, and other responsibilities related to her care. Even now, she still needs a dental appointment that has not been scheduled since all of this happened.
After arguing back and forth with him and his wife, I went to their home because I was desperate to see my child after he refused to return her. Once I went inside, I immediately realized there was no point in being there because they were not going to allow me to see my daughter. I turned around and decided to leave.
As I was getting ready to leave, he was behind me recording. I saw him reach for his wife’s wallet and then tuck a plate under the couch. When we were together, he used to hide plates under the couch that had drugs on them, which is why that stood out to me.
There is now a restraining order against me. I do not want contact with either of them; I only want my daughter back and to be a part of her life.
Neither of us is currently working. I recently enrolled in school to improve my situation and create a better future for myself and my daughter. We were supposed to have court on July 13, but I have not been served yet. I had hope that I would have the opportunity to get my daughter back.
I spoke to a therapist because I felt overwhelmed and needed support. During that conversation, I felt like I was about to break down. What hurt me deeply was being told repeatedly that I had little chance of getting my daughter back and that she was better off with them because there are two adults in their household and only one of me. Mind you his wife and I were close at one point she told me herself that he has gotten physical with her and my daughter told me that they do argue a lot, and I don’t think that’s right either for her to be around but that’s besides the point.
I understand that I made a mistake by going into their home. I regret that decision. However, my actions came from panic, fear, and desperation over losing my child, not from a desire to harm anyone. I love my daughter, I have always tried to be there for her, and I do not know what to do anymore. I feel like I am losing hope.