u/viiochan

Thought I might give this a try lol

Soooo anyways... Im looking for people around my age range with similar interests to talk to, best case I won't get ghosted after a day or two and find some real friends.

Im from Europe, Germany to be exact, so keep that time zone difference in mind. Im also quite autistic and doesn't get sarcasm or might phrase something too blunt, even if I didnt mean it that way. Anxiety is also something Im struggling with, but once I start talking about something I like, I cannot stop myself. Sometimes I do need breaks from socializing tho, so I might take a bit longer to reply. Also my humor is quite dark, once I feel more comfortable.

I like to draw, traditional to be exact, but Im also trying to learn digital art. Mostly people, I cant draw landscapes. Would love to share sketches.

When it comes to gaming, the only multiplayer game I play is League. I also love DMC and the souls games, but Sekiro is my number one. I used to play a lot of Sims4, but havent in quite a while (even created custom content lol).

Anime arent my thing, but I read manga and manhwa. My main genres are dark romance and wuxia, mostly in combination. The darker and more fucked up the relationship and story the better. Guilty pleasure is my love for monster x human relationships and I cant get enough of it. Would love some recommendations and deep talks! Oh and I also wanted to dive into writing fanfic for quite some time by now.

AI rp is another hobby of mine and I would love to talk about rps and models to someone who's also into that. Sharing stories and everything. Im not looking for a rl rp partner tho.

You can just dm me, no need to comment first 🫡

Yesterday I had my first appointment. Finally! But that's sadly only the first step and many more will follow.

After talking for about an hour, the doctor gave me the working diagnoses depression and ocpd. Depression came to no surprise, I was sure of it already. But also ocpd and I spent quite some time on researching symptoms since yesterday and reading through experiences. Thing is, it doesn't feel that relatable. I know you don't have to fit every checkmark, but somehow I don't see myself in that condition. It's hard to explain. It feels like the motivations are different?

I know it's only a working diagnosis and it can change. But how did you feel when the therapist mentioned ocpd for the first time? Did you expect it? Or were you as unsure as me?

My next step is to decide whether I put myself on the wait list for a psychiatric or psychosomatic institution. And it seems like she wanted to push me towards psychiatric. Im okay with partial inpatient, I still want to sleep at home. The appointment yesterday was at the psychosomatic institution.

Over the past year I researched many conditions, and I strongly see myself in adhd and autism. But for example for adhd, the psychosomatic institution doesn't diagnose it, she told me yesterday. Should I still insist and try to get tested for those, or rather trust her first opinion?