Burnout and personal stress led me to create a toxic work environment, is it salvageable?
I messed up and need some objective, realistic career advice.
I am a 27m. I’ve been with my company for 3 years. For the first 2 years, I had an excellent track record with zero issues.
However, management eventually began piling on a massive amount of extra work with no increase in pay. At the same time, I was dealing with heavy personal problems outside of work. I tried to compartmentalize everything, but the combined pressure broke me. My frustration turned into bitterness, and for about a 6-month stretch, I let that anger completely bleed into my job.
I started talking back to my manager and acting out. Looking back, I realize how much of an asshole and man child I’ve been, and I hate it. I don’t want to be that kind of person or worker anymore.
Lately, I’ve been trying hard to repair the damage. For the past several weeks, I’ve been showing up, putting my head down, and performing perfectly at my job to stop the bleeding. But even though my behavior has changed, the environment hasn't. The atmosphere still feels incredibly strained, tense, and damaged.