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The first picture is when the lump first appeared to us. In 30 days, Pepper has lost her fight to this aggressive cancer. The lump grew quite large in only the span of a month, but I don’t want her to be remembered by the size of her tumor. I want her to be remembered as my spiky little ball of love. She may have been a grumpy old lady, but regardless she was patient even when my little brother bothered her, and even when I wouldn’t leave her alone at first when we noticed the lump. I wish I had more time with her, but I couldn’t let her suffer any longer. I held her in my hands as she was given the injection, and held her until her little heart slowly stopped. I love you Pepper, and I will miss you so much.

Here’s a video of her grooming herself as tax, but Pepper has crossed the rainbow bridge this afternoon with help of my amazing local vets. I was able to hold her the whole time. She’s finally pain free now. Thank you everyone who gave advice and kind words. I’ll be posting her prints in the comments.

I marked this as NSFW because I understand some people have weak stomachs when it comes to this stuff.

Anyway,
I got her out to give her the meds, and while I was getting the liquid into the syringe, she yawned and this was then hanging out of her mouth. I panicked and called my mom, who then told me to see if it would come out. I went into the kitchen, threw on some gloves, but when I came out, it had fallen into her fluff. I’m unsure if she scratched it or if it fell out on its own.

The last slide is what she looked like before from one of my previous posts, which seems to be what came out. Her face appears less swollen too. My mom said that this was a good thing, but now it makes me unsure that she is swallowing her food. I can’t tell if it’s puss, or chewed up food, or anything else. All I know is that it broke apart with little pressure between my gloved fingers, and looked like bloody mashed potatoes (you’re welcome).

Again, she’s still eating, drinking, running on her wheel, and taking her meds well. I don’t have the money right now to bring her to the vet unless it’s for her to be euthanized :(.

Her meds keep her comfortable, help with pain, induce appetite, energy, and help slow the growth. I just want as much time as possible with her before it really is too late.

I went away for 5 days last week for my class trip. I called and asked how the hedgehog was doing. Every time they said she was doing the same. I got home and she is not doing the same.

Going on a trip to DC, teacher requested we bring business casual clothes.

I flaired NSFW bc I know some people don’t like blood. Anyway, I’ve been giving her the anti-biotic for over a week now and it’s only gotten worse. She’s still eating and drinking, just less now. Today I got her up to give her the anti-biotic and as soon as the first drop went in it was straight red. The second photo does what really happened no justice. I was terrified. Then it started foaming like she was trying to add it to her scent (I forget what it’s called). Every time I mention bringing her to the vet again my parents guilt trip me into not. Atp I just want to see if she can get painkillers and ride out the rest of her days. Her ears are starting to get dry and cracked again too, I have no idea why. I wish I could take her pain away and just make her comfortable.