Has anyone actually been transformed by Christ and "quenched with His water"?
Jesus always speaks in metaphors, like a politician or a salesman. It sounds good, but does it actually work? All I get from parables is that I'm damned many times over since I'm like the bad examples of the subjects of these parables. I'm convicted of my sinful nature, yet I can't reconcile how I can be saved, when I still have to make an effort to make myself pray, not sin, etc. Has anyone really been turned into a new wine skin, a new vessel, to hold the new wine or the water of Christ? Is there a point where Jesus telepathically communicates with your mind? Do you have to go crazy first?
I'm asking because I agree with the New Testament intellectually, but I don't know how to translate that to my specific life. I have to reach through the Internet since nobody in my life or vicinity knows either. What changes in your life or your character after accepting the Holy Spirit or being saved or whatever? I just don't get it. I'm spiritually afflicted and alone in this world. Churches are just a social cult. I'm too poor and single to be accepted in any church community. I need financial assistance to better my life.