u/why_am_i_here_-_

am i too clingy?

my boyfriend and i (both 17) are aware that our relationship will have to end soon, he’s dropping out of college to work full time then next july leave england for the forceable future to travel and teach abroad. we know well have to break up some time before the next college year but we decided to see the relationship through till then because we both still love each other very much. however, he already works a lot now and is planning to go full time in the summer so i only get to see him, outside of 45 min college lunch break, maybe every 2/3 weeks. whenever i say how much this upsets me he usually reminds me that he still gets to see me in college. hes told me before that in the list of his priorities of his days off that going to gigs with his friends are above me, even when he knows we dont have long left and every day we can see each other counts. i work too but manage to find free days but his schedule seems constantly busy. he went to a gig all day yesterday and i heard from him three times the whole day, which is fine because i thought wed get to catchup today in college but the he had texted me at 1AM saying he isnt coming in. i know this may seem small but college is literally one of the only times i get to see him anymore and its hard to have a proper conversation over text so it just hurts me a bit that he is choosing to not come into college because hes tired from a gig when he always says to me how him not seeing me on weekends is okay because we have college. its a small incident but its the principle of it that upsets me because he tends to do this a lot. but once again, maybe i am just too clingy idk please give me some advice :)

edit: just remembered he has another gig tonight too which im sure he wont be missing

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u/why_am_i_here_-_ — 1 day ago

i think i may have been strangled in a past life?

ever since i was little ive always hated things touching my neck, not like a sensory way but like human hands touching my neck, like being tickled near my neck or having a family member touch it always made me uncomfortable or anxious. i also have a very sensitive neck, constantly getting goosebumps when even a bit of my hair touches my neck in a weird way. i also have always imagined strangulation as the default way of dying since i was little, like if i was asked to imagine being killed my mind would immediately go to the image of being strangled. i also now get reoccurring nightmares of my boyfriend strangling to death after i reject him or break up with him and hes never been violent before for that thought to be in my head. i also have a birth mark on my neck which i thought what a cool detail ( as seen above c:) anyone have any ideas?

u/why_am_i_here_-_ — 10 days ago