u/whydoihesitate

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My chocolate trial

SUMMARY: I'm trying 45 grams/day of dark chocolate. Only on day 4, so too soon to be sure about causality; but it may be helping with mood, attention, orthostatic intolerance, and physical appearance.

DETAIL: Every morning, I eat 45 grams of vegan chocolate chips, 69% cacao. I eat no other chocolate.

Though it's too early to be sure that there's a causal link, I've noticed better mood, better attention, better physical stamina (in the sense that there's less orthostatic intolerance), a reduction in the recent flareup of a podgy look in my chest and belly (from inflammation?), and a nicer face (less of the inflammatory puffiness; smaller pores; color seems more even; usual dry patch isn't dry; and the two creases between my eyebrows are much less visible). My appetite for Coca-Cola is much less.

As for my attention: I've been able to watch a movie in chunks of about 20 to 30 minutes. Ever since I got CFS (5 years ago), my norm for movie-watching has been chunks of 3 to 5 minutes, 15 minutes if I'm lucky. (Before CFS, I could turn on Turner Classic Movies and watch three in a row.)

Orthostatic intolerance: I still spend a lot of time lying down—but, when I am sitting up or on my feet, there isn't nearly so much desire to get more horizontal. Just before writing this post, I spent a while washing dishes, and it didn't make me feel sick. Yesterday, I had a long shower—and afterward I kept on with my activities, instead of lying down feeling sick.

Why am I doing this? Until I started this experiment, it had become my norm not to eat much chocolate (I'd go many weeks without). Recently I had some at night, and got the sense that it was keeping me wide awake for many hours, in a way that p.m. coffee and Coke didn't. I looked it up, and read that it might be the theobromine in the chocolate, acting as a stimulant. I also had a feeling that, in the many hours after the chocolate, I was not as PEM-y as I should be after the day's errands. That got me curious about chocolate in CFS; I found "High Cocoa Polyphenol Rich Chocolate May Reduce the Burden of the Symptoms in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" (https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3001690/pdf/1475-2891-9-55.pdf).

By the way, the study found that the chocolate was not associated with weight gain, despite the calories in it. The authors hypothesize that the increase in feeling energetic causes a compensatory increase in activity. I suspect that the subjects also, despite being told to maintain their diet, subconsciously made compensatory reductions because of the chocolate.

In case it matters: the chocolate chips are made by Enjoy Life, the Dark variety; the listed ingredients are unsweetened chocolate, cane sugar, cocoa butter; the 45 grams have 210 calories. I eat them in the morning, to keep them from messing up my sleep.

We'll see how it goes.

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u/whydoihesitate — 1 day ago

J-goth or punk?

The two pix that were being discussed most before my last post was removed for including some blue denim. Some said it was punk (perhaps Avril Lavigne–ish), or that the only punk part was the plaid, or that it was J-goth (reminiscent of Sharpness Cross Edge (?)). I still think dropping the top off the shoulders makes it more goth.

Roadside finds: top, necktie around neck, robe sash around ponytail, black & white strip around ponytail, fingerless gloves, necktie around waist. Thrift-store: skirt. From bakery packaging: white ribbon. Homemade: garters (elastic, lace, red and black ribbons, thread). Inherited second hand: garter-belts, stockings, petticoat, studded belt. Bought new: arm-warmers.

u/whydoihesitate — 5 days ago

Say it ain't punk?

Is it just me, or does dropping it off the shoulders slide the plaid-skirt fit from punk to goth? And would you describe the other two outfits as belonging to any particular subgenre?

u/whydoihesitate — 7 days ago

Last time I showed pix of myself to strangers on the Internet was A Space Odyssey. It went alright, and still I hesitate.

Sorry if I've chosen the wrong 'flair'. I'm not picky about subgenres.

u/whydoihesitate — 17 days ago