u/wishiwasdead23

Like literally lifting my tooth brush to brush my teeth, feels like the hardest task in mankind. Cleaning my room feels like lifting a million pounds. Even getting up to get a glass of water is terrible. I also never feel rested no matter how much I sleep. And my body feels like theirs weights on it. I ask this because ive noticed not all anheodnics have this symptom. And that scares me. Because that means theirs more damage I have to recover from bruh

I logically know the trees are beautiful. I logically know the sun looks amazing. But I can't feel a single thing. Worst torture in history. My brain doesn't process my surroundings. It's crazy so much of who we are, lies within the brain man.

How is all the background noise in my mind completely gone ??. Just silence and nothingness. I literally don't generate complex thoughts like I use too anymore. This is some crazy brain damage. Why couldn't have this just killed me instead of leaving me just alive enough to suffer. Im subhuman, I'm not even a human anymore I swear to god

I feel torture by just merely existing. The fact I'm laying in bed and can't even feel 1%percent of comfort from my blankets and pillows, is fucking devilish. This is not boredom, it's being stripped of everything that every made u human. Wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. This is going to take a miracle for me to recover.

Am I the only one who lays in bed with their eyes closed sometimes, because theirs literally no mental stimulation??

This is the most insane shit ever, I lose my mind every second thinking of my reality. To think I have 60+ more years of life to live through with this. How can I fuck up this bad ? How can everything I once knew about life, be completely obliterated like that ? Like WTF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!!!!! HOLY SHIT !!!!!!