Just took first pill - feeling mixed emotions
I've been with my husband for about 15 years, married for 10 this November. We have a wonderful 4 year old daughter together. Last Sat, we found out I'm pregnant and immediately knew it wasn't for the best. We wanted to be one and done for a variety of reasons: financial security, time capacity (we have long commutes and are out of the house from 6:30 - 6), and I have 3 fibroids which one led to some complications that led to an emergency c section. It grew to 10 cm. The doctors said if I were to try to get pregnant again I should plan to remove them but we didn't. I also had sepsis after my delivery, which no one knows how I got it.
We feel like we just got ourselves back...I'm going to the gym again, lost 55 lbs, things are getting easier with our daughter and we are enjoying traveling and experiences with her. Toddler years were hard on my mental health.
Overall, I know this decision is for the best but I still feel so very sad and after taking the pill just feel so guilty, but I am hoping the relief comes soon. Tomorrow I'll take the other pills. Any other similar experiences or words of wisdom would help me today and tomorrow.