J to S
S,
I'm sorry. Sorry I fucked up our friendship because I couldn't be happy loving you quietly from a distance. The reality of losing you as a friend terrifies me, even more than knowing I can never call you mine. But when you kept talking down on yourself, it drove me wild, because all you saw in yourself was an older gal with baggage, while I saw the most Amazing woman in the world. And I know nothing could ever have happened between us, because you never saw me that way, and thats ok, but I just wanted you to know that, there was somebody who saw past the bullshit and trauma, and saw you, loved you, and wanted you to not feel lonely anymore. But now it seems, my confession and feelings have pushed you away, and I know, you have every right to walk away. You have every right to be angry. I don't blame you one bit. Just know that I will always love you, and want the best for you. Take care of yourself Kid.
J