u/xdbigfloppa

I have been broken with my ex gf since January, it was my fault, I did the breakup and i regret it so much. It was cause of fantasies I could not accept and they were mentally wrecking me. And i just I had to cut contact forever today, since we were in contact after the breakup. My emotions are all over the place, I am going from mad, to sad, crying, to having a hole in the stomach feeling, I feel like I am empty, my brain tells me that I am alone forever again and wont find anyone to love again. I am extremely sensitive and it paralyzes me, I cant do anything but. sit. or sleep. I was imaging myself holding hands together but i clearly know i will go back to my reality, and of course it will hurt me cause that will never happen again

if you actually read this, thanks.. to somewhat care about this.