Technically a Widow but Remarried
I did do a search but didn't find any similar posts, mods can feel free to delete if not appropriate. So, I was widowed in 2009, after almost 9 years of marriage. I was in my early twenties. I didn't know anyone at that time or have anyone to relate experience to me about what it was like to be a widow in your twenties. But shortly after my husband passed, I met someone through mutual friends. To make a long story short, that man became the second love of my life. We have now been married for 14 years. My question is, sometimes, I feel overwhelming sadness and guilt about the loss of my first husband and "moving on so fast". And I don't know anyone else who has experienced this similar situation to mine. Maybe, I'm just looking for someone to tell me that it's okay to think about him from time to time, and feel overwhelming sadness, but yet still be totally completely in love with the husband that I am married to now. There are conflicting feelings within me that I can't explain. And it feels like I'm torn between feeling how I'm supposed to feel versus how I'm allowed to feel. If that makes any sense, I don't know. Thank you if you've read all the way through this.