u/xvsmi

i just can’t do it, so scared and i am literally peeking through my fingers whilst playing it is not enjoyable at all (but i need to do it)
need tips please

Hi everyone. I’m a 31yo female. I have suffered all my life from vivid dreaming and recurring dreams but they have always been nightmares never anything nice… i also suffer with a number of mental health issues and ptsd.. lately even when i nap i am having terrible dreams and when i wake up i can tell every single detail down to the point i remember everything, most of my dreams involve me being r*ped .. tortured .. and visual disturbances i witness… can be anything from animal ab*se to witnessing very bad gore scenes… they are usually always in the same building and i am always trying to escape.. i even feel what happens to me, i dream about being burned alive and i can feel this in my sleep and when i wake up my body is literally burning… the same with when i feel sick in my dreams i wake up and vomit … i also have accidents in bed often …i wake up sweaty and feeling sick almost every day and sometimes even get panic attacks that wake me up in the night and i feel like i cannot even swallow let alone breath.. i have asked my psychiatrist for a review i am already on a lot of medication for my mental health and my psych wants me my usual doctor to rule out physical problems that could be causing this but i assume it is linked to my ptsd?? i’m tired of the after effects of my disturbed sleep it is quite literally ruining my life
what can i do to make them stop … i have been having therapy almost all my life and the dreams have only gotten worse not better , even when i take a break from therapy they do not go away, i am so exhausted