How do yall get motivated?
So I have POTS/dysautonomia, fibromyalgia, migraines, hypermobility, possible CCI, and other issues. Neuro strongly suspect hEDS. Anyway, I recently started physical therapy, but I have such a hard time motivating myself to get out of bed to actually do the at home exercises.
I want so badly to get better because my body feels so knotted up all over, especially my neck and back, but when I remember I have to workout my executive dysfunction really kicks in and so does time blindness due to being neurodivergent. I don’t know if my body is too tired or if my brain is too tired, but I just can’t find the energy to actually be disciplined and do my workouts. Does anyone else have trouble with this?
It’s not so much so the pain, it’s just the task itself. Same thing with cleaning litter boxes, showering, brushing my teeth, etc. Those things always get done EVENTUALLY, but never “on time.” If I have a doctors appointment on the other hand, I actually get out of bed, get ready, and go to it and am always on time or early.
Ever since I graduated college in May, it feels like I’m in this endless loop of WANTING to be productive but not motivated to do anything at all. I’m on a ton of different meds that have overall improved my function and I am on stimulants for my neurocognitive issues but it seems like the stimulants just don’t work anymore, even after my doctor increased my dosage. I want caffeine but then my Raynaud’s gets worse, so I try to avoid it but caffeine is really the only thing that makes me wired enough to do anything but it doesn’t last long.
There’s so many things I want to do. I want to study for the GRE, I want to track my symptoms, I want to start a food diary for my GI issues, I want to workout, etc. There are so many things I WANT TO DO, but absolutely zero motivation to do them. Lately, I’ve just been in bed all day watching YouTube videos about various chronic illnesses because I love learning I just want to learn so much.
I wish I could do a million things at once, sometimes I wish I had a clone, but when it comes to anything that doesn’t involve laying in bed, I just procrastinate until the day is entirely gone.
If you’ve had this issue, how did you fix it? Please I need advice. Not even accountability by my physical therapist helps. She can literally see whether I login to do the exercises and it’s embarrassing to give her excuses. She doesn’t judge me, but I know it’s probably a little disappointing to her and it’s very disappointing to me. I feel very guilty overall about everything that I do not get done in general. :/
TLDR: I need tips for motivation to get out of bed to actually do my PT exercises because lately I just stay in bed all day with the exception of eating and feeding my cats, but I do want to get physically better.