u/yagirlbmoney

I had to drop something off to my grandmother Tuesday evening (44 hours ago at this point). She is sick with a stomach bug.

Reluctantly I went, trying to be rational that if I wash my hands when I get home I should be okay. I didn't touch much and tried to keep my distance from anyone in the house.

Right before I left my grandmother said that she thrown up that morning and thought she was feeling better but tried to eat some jello right before I got there and it started to come back up. I'm not sure what she meant by that, if she vomited or just felt like she was going to.

I'm concerned that she vomited and the particles were still in the air and I breathed them in.

I used hand sanitizer once I got in the car, washed my hands as soon as I came home and sanitized some more, and rinsed my mouth with hydrogen peroxide.

I realize that I've done more than the average person on terms of prevention, but I can't help but still be on edge knowing I was exposed. It doesn't help that my stomach has felt a bit off since last night. I can't tell if it's something I ate or anxiety, or of it's the start of coming down with something.

Am I panicking for no reason?

My dad and I had to drop something off to my grandmother today. When she didn't answer her phone, my dad called my aunt. She said that they've all been sick recently.

Reluctantly I went, trying to be rational that if I wash my hands when I get home I should be okay. I also stayed back from my aunt and grandmother and tried not to breathe in too much while there.

Right before we left my grandmother said that she v*d this morning and thought she was feeling better but tried to eat some jello right before we got there and it started to come back up. I'm not sure what she meant by that, if she v*d or not.

So now I'm freaked out that she v*d and the particles were still in the air and we breathed them in. My dad got closer to her than I did but I was still in the room.

I sanitized twice once in the car. Double washed my hands as soon as I came home. Sanitized 3 more times after washing my hands. Double rinsed my mouth with hydrogen peroxide. Plus wiped my face and sanitized my phone.

Hopefully that is enough to prevent anything if I was exposed to any germs. But I'm still gonna be on edge for the foreseeable future. Ugh.

My grandmother v*ed in front of me tonight. She g*ed on a bite of food and had her mouth covered, so I didn't see too much. It also helped knowing that it wasn't contagious.

It did make me feel kind of n* in the moment, but I was able to finish my dinner, I went back in to visit with her, she even insisted I give her a kiss on the cheek and I did.

My problem is I can't stop replaying it in my head. It makes me cringe and the more I think about it, the queasier I feel. I know that the thoughts will stop with time and the visual of it won't be as clear, but is there any way to get this out of my mind sooner?

I was already on edge to begin with (took the risk of eating romaine lettuce, and my mom accidentally ate something moldy and is worried if it will bother her, so of course I'm worried too). It's just not helping things.

Any advice to remain calm and stop thinking about it would be greatly appreciated.