u/yakwheel

When I recently went cold turkey for 3 days, the withdrawal wasn’t even that bad. It is totally doable to quit. One part of me knew deep down its not that bad and I am just being a spoilt brat wanting my fix, but the other part is my addiction telling me that its the worst thing in the world. I know truly that it isn’t that bad to be in withdrawal. It is quite literally an angel and devil on my shoulder. Does anyone else feel this?

I cannot handle it. It is soooo hard, kinda. I keep eating constantly, and I cannot get any motivation to do my shoulder surgery rehab exercises. I don’t know what to do. I want to give up giving up because I feel fucked.

I have been vaping my last pod today, after this one I said id quit. To make sure it has lasted until tonight I have barely been hitting it to preserve it so I can go to bed and wake up with nothing.

I have been going through withdrawals already just due to not having my appropriate dose. I am a pretty constant vaper and I feel dazed, like im on a different drug. I instantly just want to accept ‘whats the point’ and keep vaping. I feel like my life cannot be good without it. It’s my last little thing I enjoy. I don’t use drugs, I dont drink. Every time I underestimate how fucking bad it will be when I quit. Shit is the worst thing ever and I just don’t want to go through it. I feel psychotic like I want to break shit and hurt myself (not in a self harm way, it’s weird to explain). I know these feelings are not truly me its just a severe lack of dopamine in my brain.

I also have to do shoulder physio (due to a surgery I had last year) at home which is ALREADY hard to get motivation for regardless of quitting and not I feel like I wont even do those.

Ive tried to quit vaping with NRT’s (patches/gum) and I have gone cold turkey. I was more successful with cold turkey, lasted a month but caved in because I was jealous of my partner smoking a cigarette among mental health issues.

I went to Europe last year and had to not bring a vape with me due to the layover being in a country where vaping was illegal. The withdrawals were bad especially with a 28 hour journey. When I got to Europe I was vaping there and their legal nicotine limit is 20mg/ml. I noticed the withdrawals were less significant on the way back, so I recently switched to 20mg/ml here in Australia and I am about to run out, in the hopes of my withdrawals being less significant. I feel good about this time (which is very optimistic, it may be and probably will be a lot worse than I expect). I will keep y’all updated but has anyone had a successful story (even if only partially) by tapering down then going cold turkey?

Stay strong guys.