There is so much I want to do. So many things I am interested at.
Back in my prime ... Lol.. there was no prime but looking back it was my prime .. I'm still in my 20's tho but I feel like I am too behind. So, back then I would participate in all the curriculum irrespective of the fact I knew how to or not. I remember it in series. I used to love doing running races because I had defeated one of the fastest runners from my class .. she used to defeat guys too. So I built confidence and I loved running races and in general sports were my thing. This was back in grade 3 or 4. Long story, it is. In short. Sports, arts, craft, singing, dancing, skits, studies, reading, writing too ( I do now too but it's not the same) - these are over the time from grade 3 till now. But after my 10th i got into science and went to the famous institution as you know it. There i faced relationship issues and consistent failure in the tests and I was sinking down deep and I didn't even realise I gained weight .. a lot of weight . ..like 30kgs... I didn't realise.. I saw myself but still didn't. I couldn't see. Crying all night.. and yk .. won't say, else it will be removed. That was a long distance for the record. I was depressed fr. I ate, didn't do drugs at all.. didn't know a pinch of it also.. so eat play games, watch phone all day, didn't study and cry... Again long cutting short .. I stopped doing everything. After COVID we came home, my parents really did hard work. I lost weight .. I was less cloudy , they didn't know anything that was happening with me. I shared nothing at all. I used to cry hiding and like crazy. Sometimes if they caught me crying, I would say exam pressure. I realised what looked of me. Anyways I am better not so much.. emotionally a lot better yes, but physically a long back to go.. and I wanna go .. I have started hobbies but medical profession you gotta balance . But no progress.. i want to buy I can't .. I think but I don't but I want to and I am stuck in this loop. I am in my internship .. lol I spoke so much I forgot the point. I mean I think it's my confidence or time or procrastination idk.. I am not able to make myself better .. I did comparing but I have a long way to go.