12th house saturn… projection onto me is so draining.
i have aries saturn in the 12th house, i don’t totally consider myself a 12th houser like some of the stelliums in here, but i feel this placement so strongly. it seems i am constantly projected on in my personal and professional life, and as time goes on i’m growing increasingly tired of it. i tend to have an adversarial relationship with (almost) every female boss i’ve had, but get along great with female coworkers at my same level or lower (at any age). my bosses will admit i had a great interview, am competent, qualified, but they still don’t like me from the start. it also can happen with meeting female friends out in the world. i’ve always kept female friends because when they get to know me and give me a chance, i’m really well liked. but if a girl meets me without an introduction from someone else they find me very unpleasant and hard to read. i’ve tried being bubbly, more reserved and calm, but it seems like my behavior makes no difference.
i have a gemini rising so i see myself having the ability to be inquisitive, engaging, a good conversationalist. but no matter how nice (or withdrawn) i am, it seems to be all the same result until someone gives me a chance. i didn’t post my full chart because i’m not scheming to get a free reading, but just wanted to know if any other 12th housers experience this.