How do you stop empathizing with your shitty parents??
TW: slight mentions of CSA and suicidal thoughts
My parents don't do shit for me. They neglect me of basic neccesities despite us being middle to high income. They've hurt me in many ways, physically, emotionally, sexually, I've been through it all with them. They've made me hate myself and even made me feel suicidal. But for some stupid reason, I can't help but empathize with them at the same time. My mother went through a lot, my father did too, I won't go into detail since,,, well yeah no need for that, but trust me when I say my parents have been through a lot.
But I don't want to empathize with them. I know what they went through doesn't excuse what they do to me. Why the fuck do I feel this way? I keep telling myself that I should ignore it but I can't. Whenever I look at them I think of what they went through.
I distance myself from them, since I'm moving out soon for college. I didn't talk to them much before but now I don't talk to them at all. When I do, I'm quiet, unresponsive even. It's been helping me have some control over how they treat me, but at the same time when I ignore them I feel like? A dick??? ☹️
Idk this is more of a vent than anything but. I wanna ask for people who left their parents or no longer empathize with them, how did you do that? How did you get rid of that feeling? I feel guilty because, they've done so much for me, but I know that they've hurt me. But I still cry over what they've gone through, I still feel bad when I ignore them. I don't want this. I've been ignoring them and distancing myself for years but it won't go away.