i wanna pay back my parents for everything they've done for me so they don't hold it over my head.
im an eldest daughter in an Indian household and taking a drop year for neet
even though I have a good relationship with my parents and I know they want what's best for me i just wanna pay them back for all the expenses they've spent on me including fees, clothes and everything.
in argument they bring up how much money they've spent on me as if I asked them to be born
im currently not living with them but my younger sister is who's 12 rn and she calls me periodically crying saying how much my parents scold and taunt her on her marks and she can't handle it
then she asks me how i handled living with them (even though I love them i hate them)
i hate hate when my father scolds me or my sister cause he always uses such cut sharp words that make me cry so much and i hate crying over what he says, and he fucking gets more angry when me or my sister cry and slaps us
no wonder im suicidal and probably suffering from depression
now my sister is going through that torture of living with them.