u/your_poo

When you meet each other again the following morning you start looking at them in a different way, considering things from scratch. Am I guilty about what I dreamt of? But wasn't it a nice feeling when we were together? Do I really just never bring it up? It eats away at you for a while until you ultimately decide dreams are nonsense. But wow, she really is kind of beautiful and I never thought too much about it before. It wouldn't work out.

Well. I've had much weirder wet dreams than that. But not many of them have made me think for so long. The perks of being a virile young man❤️

Reading Bury My Heart at Wounded knee atm and man America has ALWAYS been a devil country murdering men, women and children for profit, lying and breaking treaty after treaty, using the survivors as slaves and so on. Of course I knew all this already from popular media and the fact that America isn't exactly full of red Indians anymore but stuff like the Sand Creek Massacre and the fate of the Modocs and so on really drives it in. As a muslim, it was eye opening to see the exact same playbook used 200 years ago, with any retaliation by any angry Indians fighting for self governance or trying to avenge their peoples deaths after their villages burnt and their babies shot were painted as savages

I say "radicalised" but self defence is a pretty obvious response to all that, and it seems for a time they engaged in it. Tribes who were previously friendly to white people or antagonistic towards each other banded together to fight those that drove them off their land and killed their bison and either they were hunted to extinction or they managed to stake out a treaty that would get violated in the future and the process would repeat again.

What I don't get is how their descendants came out of this doomed cycle of violence. How do you go about living in a country you know was built from declaring war on your people, a country who's wealth came by drinking your blood, a country in which your quality of life is still to this day horrifically impacted by the same continuing government who put your ancestors on some 3rd world slum esque crime ridden reservation shithole without hating everything about it?? Throughout history people who were occupied for hundreds of years still carried a grudge for centuries against their colonisers and became violent when they saw an opportunity to get their rights so how come this doesn't happen with native Americans? Half breed Asian/white, latino white etc teens might go on a shooting spree just because they couldn't get a crumb of pussy so how come that doesn't happen with these disaffected native American youth who have it far worse? How come there are no more armed orgs?

Independence is a crack dream obvsly but what about all the other mistreatment? Is there that little hope left for them? Is there some CIA psyop that keeps them placated?