u/yveelik

I got sick after the birth of my first child and was diagnosed with depression several times. Antidepressant didn’t to anything other than pushing me into mania so I caught my self drinking more and more. From one bottle of wine a week, to one bottle of wine a day, to two bottle of wine a day. Wine is dirt cheap in Germany so that didn’t help also doesn’t help that it is completely acceptable. Christ, the legal age is 16 here.
When we were shopping, my child brought me wine bottles because she told me that this is my favorite drink. Still couldn’t stop for my own children. This went on for 7 years. My husband left me and took our kids back to the states.
I finally was able to get help then. Turns out I am bipolar and that with a special for of it. I am an ultra, ultra rapid cycle. Basically my moods switch in hours or even minutes.i emam doing well now but the fricking trauma I cause to my loved ones , kills me everyday. I cause so much pain.lost many friend as well.

I am doing well now. I am able to open my mail, brush my teeth and keep a clean household. The abilities you can loose due to meantal health is crazy. I studied abroad. I went to the states when I was 19. I achieved all those those thing and gained a degree. On my lowest days, I wasn’t even able to answer my phone. I gained back so much and been working on all my relationships and I am proud of myself!! Even going back to university to get a degree in international business ( my social work degree is not recognized here) typical German